Insignificant.

I’ve been sitting here for hours contemplating about getting my homework done, but procrastination has gotten me.

I’ve came to realize, I can’t stand being with anyone else but you.

Holyyyyyy, me is super happy. I had a GREAT freakin’ day today.

My shyness always gets mistakened for a bad attitude.

How do you look at the guy you love and tell yourself it’s time to walk away?

It’s cute how you always seem to listen to the teacher and once he finishes his statement or command, you turn around to look at me, hopefully seeing an expression on my face. I’m entering the shy stage right now so obviously I’m not going to look you in the eye, haha. I like how you decided to come sit next to me and pull the desk closer between us today. He kept teasing me but whateverrrr. We spent the whole class period getting to know each other and eventually, we both half assed our assignment. —Straight A student with an exception of a freakin’ 89 in Honors Algebra 2, while juggling Swimming and JROTC? Uh, holllaaaa. His determination to success drives me insane. Not only is he good in school, but he has this killer smile, voice, and personality. He’s polite and caring. He’ll defend anyone that deserves it. He knows how to stand up for himself without offending the people around him. He doesn’t get upset or aggravated much. He’s not all that much of a ladies man. He’s not an asshole. He is nowhere near the type of guy that judges a girl by her body, he sees more than that. There’s nothing more attractive than this guy, it’s just not possible.

As crazy and psychotic as it may sound, I can see myself spending the rest of my life with this guy, and the thought of that makes me happy. Ah, it all makes perfect sense in my head. Let’s not jinx anything yet though. :) I really hope it all works out fine in the end.

I’ve definitely found better. God, this is so fairytale-like to me. I still cannot believe this is seriously happening to me.

I can see myself working two jobs in the future. I’ll be successful but it won’t be easy. I’ll be driving a nice SUV and living in a nice place. I’ll get married one day, it’ll be grand. My family will be stable, wonderful actually. I’ll be lucky to be married to my husband. He’s a tall, intelligent, clean guy. He’ll be everything more than I’ve imagined and he’ll support me in everything I choose to do. Vice versa. :) He’ll be the one and only guy I’ll be with.. no second marriages needed. We’ll raise our children appropriately, although along the way they’ll disappoint us but we will always try our best out of our will to support them.

In the end, I’ll do my parents proud.

I find it annoying when random people add me on Facebook because..

1. We have a decent amount of mutual friends.
2. They wanna get their friend count up.
3. We go to the same school.
4. They want to creep.

but we’ve never talked in person before. Yeah, I get how we connect in someway but uhhh.. I’m not gunna acquaint you through an online social networking website. Haha, try again.

I don’t check up on you because I honestly don’t wanna know what you’ve been up to or who you’ve been talking to / hanging out with. Ignorance is bliss.

I finally came to a conclusion.. dances and parties aren’t my thing. 

Stop cussing, it’s so unnecessary. 

Typical swag is so annoying now. 

I’m starting to drop my dreams of being a nurse. 

shirleychen:

I love makeup and all but shit like this depresses me..

I’m gunna be a kitty cat for Halloween. 

I have no idea what time it was but I got thristy in the middle of the night so I reached over to get my water bottle to take a nice big gulp of water. I guess I fell asleep while I was drinking and a few minutes later as I turned I knocked over the water bottle that was laying next to me and 50% of the water poured down onto my bed. It was cold… and a nice wake up call, lol.

You will never know how much it’s hurting me inside because I’ll always be smiling.

Is it far too late to fix things?

You walked me out on a ledge just to watch me fall.

I went to Walmart today to pick up fabric paints for my Chemistry project and I was done picking up the things and I decided to go look in the fabric section and I thought it’d be sooo cool to make myself a blanket for this winter.. and I was just standing there looking at all the patterns. One of the store workers walked my way and I smiled at him. He asked me if I was doing alright and I told him I was fine and thanked him for asking. He walked passed by me and turned back around and he said “Where are you from?” I was so confused.. and I told him, I was from here.. Richardson. LOL, but he was like “No, no.. like what’s your ethnicity?” and I told him I was Chinese and he was like “Oh.. what a beaaautiful girl.” I had a huge smile on my face and I thanked him. It was really sincere of him to just say that.. haha. After crying, that totally made my day. I wish we had a lot more people like that living on this Earth.