I hate how some people are starting to randomly name characteristics they want in a guy or a girl. The fuck are you doing? No one wants you if your mind is locked on those things. Have fun looking for your ideal PERFECT person. Flaws are good, but I guess you don’t like flaws. Get the fuck out, seriously.
June 2011
LOLLOLOOLLOLOOL. Creeps on Tumblaaah.. can come kiss my ass.
Northridge High, why?
Stop acting like you’re okay.
Stop running away from all your problems.
Stop acting like you don’t give a fuck.
Stop being someone you’re not.
I can see that you’re hurt.
I can see that you’re confused.
You’re lips say “I’m okay” but your eyes are screaming for help.
May 2011
So.. my parents found this house. Usually when they find houses my mom would always fall in love with the house and my dad is always the one with all the doubts and worries. Today, my parents went to go look at the house while I was at Hawaiian Falls and obviously my mom loved it and apparently my dad loved it too. It’s so far from here though, kinda. It’s a 20 mins drive, so I probably won’t be able to go to this high school anymore. I did have a lot to look forward to. I’ve also met a lot of amazing people, but there are some things I would like to run away from. I def. need this change. The high school there is only 3 mins away from the house. I can’t walk.. because it’s a country road, but I wouldn’t mind schooling there.
Nothing.
Underwater - Unknown
I think as of today, I’m the person I swore I was never going to be. I’m not quite too sure if that’s supposed to be a good or bad thing.
Sure, of course! What is it? </3
No one has actually taken the time to listen to me.. and it doesn’t frustrate me. I’m not disappointed in any of my friends. It’s not even their fault, because I take the blame. I just hope everyone understands that I’ve had a rough time growing up, taking the days as they pass, and picking myself up as I fell through obstacles. Everyone had a rough time, but it happens differently to everyone.. each person also handles it differently. I’m not as strong as people think I am, neither or am I as happy as I always seem. It’s a show you see? I’ve been putting up a show for everyone to see. I’ve done it for so long.. I don’t even know who the hell I am anymore. I just need someone to listen without hearing me speaking, reading my actions, but that’s too much to ask for.
I’m starting to be sad as I used to be, but I can never cry as much as I used to.
“Goodbyes make you think. They make you realize what you’ve had, what you’ve lost, and what you’ve took for granted.”
Nope. I’m not gunna repeat the same mistake, I’m not gunna let it happen again. Be smart Jennifer, come on now.. haven’t you’ve been hurt enough?
Uh.. o-o why? LOLjk. I have 75 followers and I follow 36 people. Yaawp.
I like you. There’s always something telling me that I want you and that I need you. But unfortunately, it will never work out.
I hate having these feelings and thoughts bottled up inside me. I hate knowing I can’t tell anyone about it. I hate how I’m afraid of being hurt. I hate how I’m such a little bitch. I hate how I’m so emotionally stressed and I have no one to run to.
I talk back. I’ll bitch. I’ll do anything out of my own will to fight to protect what I believe in.
I hate knowing that we used to be so close, but now we’re sitting in the same room as strangers. I guess we can say that time has changed us for the better.