April 2012
March 2012
I wish it didn’t feel so awkward to tell my mom and dad that I love them.
I’m not worth anyone’s time. Everyone seems to give up on me after they can’t handle me anymore. I wish someone can keep holding on to me and won’t let me go. I just want someone who can deal with me and put up with my bullshit. Everyone gets tired of me quickly. Please, hold on to me, don’t let me go and stick with me through it all because I can’t do this alone.
I’d fly to California and New York just to go shopping and back. Oh yes I would.
I love you so much, I don’t understand why I hurt you unintentionally.
It’s killing me, swear I never cried so much
Cause I never knew love would hurt this fucking bad.
I remember recieving this assignment in AVID and I knew at that moment what I would write about. I could’ve turned it into an outgoing subject but that just wasn’t me at the moment. Sure I didn’t choose a thrill subject to write about, but I felt a lot better expressing my feelings through some poem I was assigned. I turned it in and it left my mind for a few weeks. My teacher pulled them back out on a random day and asked us to read our poems to the class. I took a glance at my poem, read the first few lines and turned away bc it was too much for me to handle. I avoided eye contact and hoped the class would end as soon as possible. And just when I thought the bell was gunna ring and the last person was gunna be the last person, I guess I underestimated. My teacher volunteered me and I couldn’t say no. I got up, took a deep breath, and read my poem. I got two lines down and and voice started to tremble, I whispered “I can’t do this…” but my teacher refused to be let down and told me to carry on. At that moment, I had no more energy to keep on. A tear drop fell down my face and my teacher wheeled herself over to me and rubbed my back. She finished reading my poem and I just stood there trying to hear my words and not cry, but I couldn’t help it. I’ve never cried so hard in front of so many people. It was beyond embarrassing.
“I am a young girl learning her way through life
I wonder when things will be okay
I hear people talking like I’m not around
I see hope within myself
I want consistent, genuine happiness
I am a young girl learning her way through life
I pretend that I’m on top of my game
I feel the pain from those who are struggling
I touch hearts with my laughter
I worry about my decisions
I cry when I become frustrated or upset
I am a young girl learning her way through life
I understand that it won’t be easy
I say that things will eventually get better
I dream that one day, the pain will ease
I try to make a better day for myself
I hope one day, I can finally say “I did it.”
I am a young girl learning her way through life”
I think Hispanics are cute, mm yeah.
Give Me Something To Believe: “A” for Aria… Reasons why!
1. Aria never gets physically hurt and nothing too extreme ever happens to her
2. Allie’s “Vivian” wig makes her look like Aria
3. A lot of the “A” notes are written on a typewriter… which Ezra has… and Aria has full time access to his apartment
1. Aria never gets physically hurt and nothing too extreme ever happens to her
2. Allie’s “Vivian” wig makes her look like Aria
3. A lot of the “A” notes are written on a typewriter… which Ezra has… and Aria has full time access to his apartment
3a. We know Aria has full time access bc there are scenes of her in there when he’s not there like the time he got held up and she was waiting and in this last episode when they were going through the bag.
4. The jacket “A” was wearing when “he/she” visited Mona was the “Vivian” jacket that Aria had
5. When they all got the dolls with the tasks, Aria’s was to get rid of Ezra’s ex… which would convenience her.
6. When Aria just happened to not go to the dinner w/ Ezra it made her dad trust her again… how convenient…
7. “A” always knows where they’re going to be… that would be a lot easier if someone in the group was tipping “A” off… or was A
8. When Aria fake confesses to Hannah’s mom that she’s A, she made a good point “A for Aria” and even though we know she was voted to do it bc she lies best to her loved ones… she said it pretty matter of factly
9. When Aria was in the plane with Duncan, he sounded like he was accusing her… she also wanted to go alone… maybe to see what how much he really knows?
10. In the Doll Shop the kid kept talking about someone with dark hair… and the shop owner kept telling him to be quiet… could he have been hinting that it was Aria and the woman was stopping him?
11. Aria is the only one who hasn’t had an “Allie” moment when they see her and she gives them clues
12. Where was Aria when the doll shop scene happened… not in the store with her friends…
13. Melissa takes Aria’s toffee flavored ice cream, the same flavor as Mona’s (an admitted member of the A team) lipstick.
14. Aria’s dark side becomes evident when her family threatens to send her away, she’s willing to do whatever it takes to stay even have her own father fired.
15. Aria dated Noel Kahn, who is also connected to Jenna and Mona.
16. She has the perfect excuse to be missing for long periods of time from the other liars because she can say she’s going to see Ezra.
17. Aria is the only one of the liars who hasn’t had a serious confrontation with Jenna. Spencer, Hanna, and Emily have all had a series of confrontations dealing with Jenna.
18. It all started when Aria came back from Iceland.
19. She wanted to do so many things w/ Spencer this episode… and Mona said they wanted Spencer to join the “A” team
You can’t just keep breaking someone that’s already been broken..